Thursday, December 19, 2013

all good things must come to an end

this blog started out as a place to journal about my surrogacy journeys. although i only had the honor of completing one full journey, i no longer have any contact with them due to their wishes. this was, and still is, a very sad thing for me to comprehend since i never wanted to be more than just in the background of this sweet little girl's life. although i doubt i will ever see a photo or receive an update on baby sesame, i think of her often and imagine her as a happy toddler.

my second journey ended in a miscarriage of identical twin girls at 7 1/2 weeks who watch their parents from above.

the final journey never took off as my lining didn't respond well to the medications i was given.

and now i mourn the loss of my own sweet baby. the past week has been a roller coaster of emotions and to even get dressed sometimes is a huge task for me to undertake. my true friends (and you know who you are) have really been there for me letting me cry and vent and giving me unconditional love.

and so since my surro life has come to end, so must my blog. i still enjoy reading your blogs and hope that mine can bring you some wisdom in your journey. it has truly been a journey.


Robin said...

I'm really sorry about your loss and I'm really sorry your IP's don't at least send you pictures of your surro baby. I have a 7 month old boy born via GS. I LOVE my GS. I thank her everyday and we text and send pictures and stay connected. You helped create a family and you deserve a picture once in awhile at the least!

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Krystal said...

So sorry for your loss :( ((hugs))

greatdana said...

Bless your soul. I'm so sorry for all your losses. Sending love from Oregon. <3 Hang in there.