it is with a heavy heart and great sadness that i have to post this. the twins had no heartbeats today.
so let me back up a little. last week at my official u/s i found out the baby was actually identical twins! i was beyond shocked, but it did account for why my beta was so high. i had been having terrible morning sickness at night (and even for the past week)and my next u/s was scheduled for today. the little ladies appeared the same size as last week and neither had a heartbeat today. to verbalize how i feel is near impossible. honestly i feel like a failure. the clinic told me over and over that i did nothing wrong, but naturally i don't feel that way. the cherries were being nourished by me and growing inside of my belly.
i have a d & c scheduled for friday and i have no idea what my future holds. please be in prayer for a quick procedure and healing for my ip's and myself.