Tuesday, June 28, 2011

happy 1 week birthday!!!

happy 1 week birthday baby sesame!

hard to believe that a whole week has already passed! hopefully next week we'll get a little visit with baby sesame and her parents and i'll have some new pictures to post.

i am feeling really good! still a bit sore in the cupcake dep't. as my milk is still trying to come in, but i live with layers, ice packs, a binder and motrin.

the kids (boo and my nephew) and i are going to have a fun afternoon at boomer's today and i'm looking forward to goofing around with them! tomorrow is the fair with my parents and i am really excited about that! that's about it for me. i am planning on returning to work in 2 weeks and getting life back to normal.

Friday, June 24, 2011

3 days postpartum

3 days later and i'm feeling really great! not having an episiotomy has helped tremendously in the healing department. i have to say that my booty feels like it weighs 100 lbs. and i need to sit often. my milk is also starting to really try and come in so i am sore and hard there too. i've been wearing about 4 layers, cabbage leaves, ice packs and a binder 24/7! the fair is in town for another week and i really want to go. i think my folks will push me in a wheelchair. :)

tonight is my first night at home and my daughter is here with me. i can't imagine having to care for her and a newborn! my hat is off to mom's with more than 1 kiddo! i explained to her how i need her to be a big helper to me for the next few days and i think she will take pride in helping mom. bedtime will be early again tonight, but here's a picture of us 3.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

birth story

6 pm monday (6.20.11) evening my contractions started regularly every 10-15 minutes. they weren't especially painful, just kinda there and annoying. my mom and i are in a bingo group and it happens to be tonight. i tell her that if anything happens we'll leave and go to the hospital so let's go. bingo goes great! dinner is good and playing and chatting is keeping my mind off of my contractions. they are still pretty regular and coming a bit closer together now.

9 pm and we head to my house to get my hospital bag and back to my mom's to labor in the tub for a while. i call my doula and no answer. i leave her a message that i will be at my mom's and i think she should come. i call my daughter's other grama to come and get her and get into the tub. still having regular contractions every 4-6 minutes but they still aren't super painful. more calls and texts to the doula and still no answer. i'm getting worried she won't make it. boo's grama is an rn and she comes upstairs to sit with me and with each contraction i feel a little gush of liquid leaking out. because i am in the tub i can't tell if it's urine or amniotic fluid and she insists that i at least go to the hospital to get checked out. call the doula again and call my ip's to let them know that i am going to the hospital.

1100 pm and i am seen in triage. my contractions are every 4 minutes and getting painful. the md on call says i perplex her because i am regularly contracting but my water did not break and i am only 4 cm dilated, 80% effaced and -2 station. she gives me 3 options - 1. walk for 2 hours 2. sit on the gurney for 2 hours and she'll recheck me 3. go home naturally i choose to go home to the horror of my mom and ip's. they are all so nervous and don't want me to deliver at home. my doula calls as i am getting ready to leave and she's been at another delivery. she offers to come over but i tell her to go home and rest and i'll call if anything happens.

1200 midnite (6.21.11) and i am back at my mom's and in the tub again. it really does help being in the water. i sit and soak and relax and breath for an hour.

0100 am and i need a snack. an apple sounds so good! downstairs i go and have a snack and walk back and forth, back and forth.

0215 am and i decide i want to lay down even though my contractions are too painful to sleep through at this point. i am surfing the internet on my phone when at 0230 am i feel a pop inside. i think that little miss has just kicked my ribs again, but when i move a huge gush of fluid comes pouring out! i yell for my mom who comes into my room from a sound sleep and tell her it's time to go. another call to my ip's telling them it's for real this time because my water broke. another call to the doula to meet us at the hospital as well. at this point my contractions are so painful that when i have one i have to stop and wait it out. i am pretty sure i am moaning through the pain as well.

we can't find the car keys!

holy crap where did i put them?

5 minutes later they are located and off we go to have a baby!

0300 am and through the er to labor and delivery. i am really having intense pain with each contraction and slip on my gown and get situated in bed. a heplock is started, fetal monitor is on and i am sucking on ice chips between contractions which are every 1-2 minutes. the cnm on call arrives and i am 6 cm!

that's it i think!

another contraction rocks my body and i scream.

i can't do this!

i am in too much pain!

give me drugs!

the nurse offers me whatever i want, but because i really don't want any medicine i am quiet until the next contraction.

my mom is rubbing my lower back because i swear the baby feels like she's gonna tear outta there! back labor is the worst!

my doula arrives and takes over from my mom. i am slightly calmer but here comes another contraction and i am yelling and screaming again. i get on my hands and knees to try and relieve some of the pain. another contraction and i swear this baby is coming out my booty! i eventually turn onto my left side and decide that the only way to stop the pain is to push her out. my body tells me to bear down now. i rip the monitor off and curl up over my tummy and push with all my strength. it feels wonderful!

everyone suddenly appears in the room again and i am bearing down with each contraction. i keep thinking that my booty is going to explode it hurts so bad! the doula is pushing on my lower back and i am holding my booty with each push.

push! push! push!

i can see her head in the mirror. she's almost here.

her head pops out "sunny side up!" she's looking up at me and that's what caused the intense back labor. the cnm tells me to slow down and breath so i don't tear. they suction the baby and she starts to cry. a little push and 1 shoulder and then the other. then she slips out and onto my belly.

reagan kathleen enters the world on june 21, 2011 at 0418 am.

her daddy cuts her cord and she's immediately handed to her mommy to bond.

my job is done.

just a little skidmark tear and 1 stitch for me.

she is absolutely beautiful and so wide awake. when i hold her she stares at me when i talk to her.



i seriously can't believe that i just gave birth to this beautiful baby sans any medication what-so-ever!

she weighs 6 lbs. 10 ozs. and is 20 1/2" long. she is so content and sleeps most of the day.

she and her mommy and daddy go home that evening and i helped create a whole new family. what a blessing and an honor it was.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

she's here! she's here!

miss reagan kathleen was welcomed with love on june 21, 2011 @ 0418. she weighed 6 lbs. 10 ozs. and was 20 1/2" long. she is absolutely beautiful and such a content baby.


welcome to the world baby girl!!!


one faux mommy and baby sesame


me, boo and baby sesame

i can't wait to share my birth story, but having had a lack of sleep since sunday nite i am opting for bed! i will share tomorrow!

Friday, June 17, 2011

any day now!

oh my gosh! oh my gosh! oh my gosh! any day little miss will be making her debut! i keep thinking i am excited and then i talk to her parents and my excitement and joy are downplayed by about a million! i had my check-up today and i am 3 1/2 cm dilated, 80% effaced and at -2 station. my cnm says she can come any day! i have plans for this weekend, so i am praying she waits till sunday after 4pm.

*sidenote* i have been following the mckmama blog for years now and she and her family are stopping in s.d. and having photo shoots on sunday. i am so excited to meet her and have her take my boo's pic's. that little miss MUST wait till after that!

today is my last day at work. it will be nice to sit on the couch and put my feet up. wednesday i was having regularly irregular contractions. (does that make sense?) the closest ones were 4 minutes apart and the furthest were 40 minutes apart. they lasted for about 6 hours then after lots of water and rest, they stopped.

well, fingers crossed for sunday after 4pm!!!

Monday, June 13, 2011

fully cooked

baby sesame is now considered fully cooked! she's still doing some simmering in there, but i am really, really, really ready for her to come out now! my app't. on friday was routine. measure and listen. no cervical check (horray) and the cnm said she can come whenever (amen!). i have another app't. this friday and she wants to do a cervical check. i am totally opposed to this as it is just a means for infection and if i'm not in full blown labor, who cares how far i'm dilated! i am aiming to stay at home as long as possible before i hear those doors of the hospital slam shut after me and limit my choices for birth. i have my birth plan ready to go and came across a wonderful blog that helped me narrow it down to bare bones and not seem too pushy. check out the site - navalgazingmidwife

38 weeks and still wearing my regular jeans! i am quite proud of that! :)

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

word of the day

today's word of the day is leaking. l.e.a.k.i.n.g. ***warning*** if you do not wanna read about breastmilk, i highly suggest you leave now.




well now that we've separated the girls from the women i have noticed that my milk is starting to come in. horray! if this was my baby, but i will not be breastfeeding baby sesame. i have read/heard some home remedies one can do to stop the milk from coming in, but i had no idea it would start this early! i went to the store today and totally forgot to buy cabbage leaves (http://www.justmommies.com/articles/drying-up-milk.shtml). darn pregnancy brain! i need to start wearing a sports bra to bed and ice packs during the day.

i am curious ... did any of you surromomma's out there breastfeed your surrobaby or pump for them? if not, what did you use to dry up your milk supply?

Monday, June 6, 2011

37 weeks

woohoo! i am almost full-term! this little girl is just about fully cooked! i am so excited to see her parents reaction to her actually being here.

here's something most momma's (except us surromomma's) get to see. one of these little embryo's grew into baby sesame.


5 day old embryos

baby sesame and i (and a friend) went to the tim mcgraw concert last night and had a blast! to the relief of many, baby sesame was not born at the concert! :) my mom is going away for 3 days so i am praying that little miss stays put for the time being. my next app't. is on friday. i am feeling pretty good for the most part. tired. swollen. uncomfortable at times. ready to be done, but it makes me sad at the same time. well here's the 37 week photo. she's still up pretty high.